God, My Way
April 29, 2018
Astorga-Rabanal del Camino
It was another outrageously blessed day on the
Camino. We pilgrims had to really suit
up in the morning in preparation for rain and possible snow that was in the
forecast. I walked under heavy cloud
cover and along breathtaking mountain landscapes. I walked alone today, well not alone alone. I
walked with the Creator of all this beauty.
As I walk, I find myself chasing Him. “What do you
want to talk to me about Lord? What are your desires to share with me today? I
am listening.”
It seems like a nice and faith-filled prayer
posture. Right? But the Holy Spirit is a gentlemen and doesn’t interrupt the
chatter in my head. So I must wait, and wait, and walk and walk. Like in the
Star Wars film when the fighting fleet enters the death star on route to the
fire on the central energy source, Luke and his flight team are warned, “Wait
for it. Wait for it” In the film they must stay the course until the target
presents itself. That is a caution I am reminded of while beginning each Camino
walk in eager anticipation for whatever the Holy Spirit’s target is for me for
the day.
Well, it was not just one target today. There were
three contained in thoughts, words, and a deed. The first message was so
obvious I could virtually have tripped over it. There set right in the middle
of the trail was a display of miscellaneous stones arranged in the shape of a
heart. Hmmmmm. “Is there a message here, Lord?”
I gave myself time for a photo and to drink in the sight of it.
A short distance away the message from Ezekiel
roared into my presence, “I will take from them their stony hearts and give
them hearts of flesh.” This led me to reflect upon those dear hearts of people I know and love who have such tender hearts of
flesh for our Lord and those they serve. This was followed by a reflection of
those who I have met and tried to mentor who have “stony hearts.” A distinct
group came to mind. You might have
encountered some to whom I’m referring.
In just these two days I’ve met two people already
who have said, “I’m spiritual; I’m not religious.” They announce this as a
proud badge of their new faith. I’ve experienced all too commonly even with
people back home. I spent a great deal of prayer time thinking about people who
hold this life conviction, “I am spiritual; I’m not religious.”
My reflection led me to understand this thinking.
First, those who attest to this always recite it in that order. It is a line a
thinking that gives credit that they are not without belief, but believe in the
spirit. When I’ve gotten into a dialogue over this thinking, I often find we
have common experiences. What I share as life events when goodness surprised me
at the perfect time after a prayer, those of that claim being spiritual agree.
They explain that spiritual events can occur where goodness happens. Though
most claim it has nothing to do with prayer or connection to God. It just . . .
.happens.
The two I talked with about this matter while on the
Camino shared a thinking I’ve heard from others who take this claim. One stated, “I like when I find goodness and
stories of goodness, but I don’t find anything of value in church. It’s a lot
of blah, blah, blah.” There is something worth reflecting upon by churches and
the faithful who practice the faith. And
then again, in regard to the “I’m spiritual” group there is something common in
their message. I believe it is this, “I’m in control. And I’ll take “God, my way.” I believe there is much
truth in this thinking, or should I say, this kind of believing. I’ll take this
spirit when I want it, how I want it, and in the way I believe He/She is to be. It strikes me as walking the buffet
line, “I’ll take God this way, not too much of this, a lot more of this,
and maybe none of that. Yep, God, my way.
These were just some of my thoughts until another
clue the Spirit left in my path. It was a pair of shoes left behind by some
pilgrim. I have come to the painful discovery that I forgot or left some needed
item behind while on the Camino. But a
pair of shoes?! How sad for a pilgrim! I chose to carry them the 10km ahead to
the next stop in hopes of reunited the pilgrim’s only other shoes. How sad for
the poor one without these!
In hopes that I’m might coincidentally happen upon
the pilgrim along The Way, I determined to carry them openly on my walking
sticks. Maybe, just maybe, the sorry
pilgrim will see them and get reunited with them.
This proved to be quite a visual companion dangling
on the tops of poles. My wild
imagination led me to consider that I may be walking in faith with a pilgrim
who might be under the weight of a stony heart. He/she might even be one of the
“I’m spiritual; I’m not religious.” In fact, that is the person to whom my
words were directed. What would be my message to someone of this persuasion?
What would you say?
Then there is that “I’m in control” aspect. I
directed my imaginary conversation to these dangling shoes. In truth, there is
nothing in which we are in control. Nothing. All things are created by a
Creator. The goodness discovered by the spirit, is in concert with a Father in
heaven. Whether we give credit or not,
it is truth.
Then the conversation got deeper, if you might join
my imaginary conversation with the shoes dangling off my poles. Perhaps the retreat from religion, the
perceived enemy of the spiritual is really a retreat from unresolved sin. Maybe, just maybe, it is a death grip on
pride. Getting real with one’s sin is
not always easy, but it is the only path toward freedom. Escaping into a “my
way” spirit world does not provide freedom. It provides an illusion of freedom
that is only found in God’s forgiveness. It is never found in the buffet
spirit-of-choice. The truth is the truth
is the truth. And God’s word and the
practice of it is the only real way. The
God, my way is our own created mind candy (sorry, my words).
I continued along with my imaginary shoe friend, and
I contemplated what I should do for him/her.
I prayed for my imaginary friend who holds fast to comfort in spirit
only. With no takers for the shoes, I did
what a good friend would do. I went to church and prayed for them. Then I took them to church.
I arrived in Rabanal del Camino in a nasty cold rain
and sleet with these shoes of my imaginary friend. I gave them to God in prayer. I gave them to
Jesus for his miracle touch. And I gave them to the Holy Spirit.
Then I placed the shoes at the church door confident
in the God is bigger than any limits that can be placed on Him. Religion is not the enemy of the spirit, our
limit on the life with the Holy Spirit
Fondly, Deacon Willie
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